I finally had the reason to near you...
But I'd miss the chance... The only chance i guess...
Opportunities come only after your action...
Guess i won't take any action anymore...
That was the last chance then...

我站在教室门口的小角落
偷偷看着你可爱的笑容
你就像天上的云朵，我好想变成彩虹
我和你的默契有种节奏
牵着你的心跳跟你走
就这样牵着你一直走
这路没有尽头
就是喜欢你偷瞄着我的害羞
让我紧紧牵着你的手望着天空
直到我们心灵相通
就这样牵着你一直走
这次绝不放手
我会努力变成属于你的流星
帮你实现心里所有的期待愿望
不管四季变化
我的心意不隐藏

默默在你的身后守候的我
多想看你不经意的笑容
或许我的心你不懂
我会努力让你感动
只要你能再多些回应我
一个笑或点头全接受
能不能再靠近一点点
让我偷偷吻你的侧脸
能不能再勇敢一点点
好想要拥抱你在身边
大声说出你所有感觉
我会隐藏着感谢
笑着对你说再见

sometimes... when i get into bad mood...
i always wanted to talk to you...
and you will be all ears... sympathy i guess...
sometimes i just want to talk to you...

i'll ask, ' how are you today? '
' i'm fine... ' you hesitated...

i'll ask, ' would you like to go for a walk? '
you'll reply, ' sure! i'd love to... '

i'll ask, ' will we be together? '
' ... i hope we will... ' you replied confidently...

i'll ask, ' *** *** ** ** ********** '
and you replied shyly, ' ** '

i can fill up the text box with million question but i don't get the answer i need...

i just want to have a proper conversation... with you...
and sometimes... i'd like to ask your secrets...
and i'll tell you mine...
as simple as that...
yet i always don't get it...

and sometimes...
i just wish i could be there for you...
always by your side...
i just feel comfortable when you are near...
cause i fear losing you...
but... that wish doesn't seem to come true...
and i don't know why...

i'm thinking of you...
everytime i draw...
thinking... if only... we could end like this...
i would like a reason to near you...
i would like a reason to love you...
i would just like a reason to end this all...

想碰巧见面
想碰你的脸
想要你出现 在面前

已经第八月
不小心跨越
再多一个月
或许能再见
彩虹般笑脸
是你的画面

你在里面
是否想念
我的笑脸

For those who cries when they are stress...
I'd like to ask... Why do you cry?
Those who are stress because of schoolwork...
Then I'd like you to know that there are those who don't have the opportunity to go to school...
Yet you are crying because school gives you stress...
And remember... There are people... Who are worse than your state...
People experiencing poverty...
Improper sanitation... Poor living condition...
And for those who cry because of working life...
Then I'd like to ask...
Why the ****ing hell did you even take the ****ing job...
When you are complaing about the stress there...
There are those who can't even get a ****ing proper job...
Yet you are complaining your ****ing boss...
Giving you the ****ing job and stressing the hell out of you?
Please reconsider and think about others in the same world...
Breathing the same air as you...
Yet not enjoying the ****ing luxury you have...
And safe those tears when you need it...
The amount of tears others shed is more than the freaking volume of water you drink in this life...
I don't get the point why people cry when they are stress...
Safe up those tears until you need it...
For joy... For happiness... For mourn...
Instead for a ****ing stress...

The 8th month...
Next month would be the 9th...
Very fast huh...
I hope we don't break it...
So that it'll be a year or 2...
Or maybe a century...
That'll be too painful for me...
Cold when we are near each other...
Not even a sound...
But you aren't like that when others are around...
Guess its me then...

We had our problems...
Who doesn't?
There is for sure a solution...
But we cant get it...
We were getting further and further away...
It has been 7 months...
Since our last conversation...
We didn't had any chance to speak...
We were never given...
The problem isn't within you...
But it is me...
There is always a door between us...
It has been locked...
By ourself...
We are the key...
But I hope we don't open it...
I like to be alone...
But I also hate loneliness...
How contradicting...
How bout you?
I'd always like to know more bout you...
Can I ???

我希望死亡不是终点
因为，我还想看你的微笑
象彩虹般灿烂
如白昼一样清晰
可以吗？